Degree in Transformations from childhood trauma's , including death of my mother before I was four, foster care . adoption into an daily abusive home- verbal, physical and more. Gradeschool and middleschool was pure torture, bullied constantly at home and in school. In fifth grade I got hit by a car as I was doing my brother's paper route and I fractured my pelvic bone. Being in the hospital for two weeks was a vacation, I was so happy for that time I even cried when I had to leave!
As my late teenage years arrived evidant mistakes started being made from my negative thinking, low selfesteem. Not sure how well I hide my self esteem issues from others , kept few close friends in HS, smiled and was nice to others though was real shy. When I would get off bus , the house would either be quite with parents at bar so I would worry when would they come home and start a fight with me. If father working then Mother would have something to yell and scream about as soon as I would walk in door.
Moved to Las Vegas at 19 to get away from parents and started out well , no drinking, no smoking, was with my first love and he was into drag racing...drink pepsi and build our drag racer....was awesome life for 3 years till I cheated on him (stupid one night stand at a company christmas party) unconciously sabatoging my happiness. Our breakup led me to drinking , making bad choices and eventually realizing that I had relationship issues due to my abuse as a child and I needed to do some work on me!
Concious transformations began in my mid twenties, once I realized I had PTSD and that in order for me to achieve my biggest single goal in life: to be a mother- I would need to transform myself into being the worman that I wanted to be the mother of my future children.
First thing first Transform my thoughts- change my negative thinking into positive thinking. I read self help books, listened to cassett tapes. Mastered how to catch my thoughts as they were happening and correct them so if I was putting myself down , I would stop myself and say no it's ok and give myself a possitive affirmation.
That was the beginning to my own transformation back in 1984 at 25 years old.
As my late teenage years arrived evidant mistakes started being made from my negative thinking, low selfesteem. Not sure how well I hide my self esteem issues from others , kept few close friends in HS, smiled and was nice to others though was real shy. When I would get off bus , the house would either be quite with parents at bar so I would worry when would they come home and start a fight with me. If father working then Mother would have something to yell and scream about as soon as I would walk in door.
Moved to Las Vegas at 19 to get away from parents and started out well , no drinking, no smoking, was with my first love and he was into drag racing...drink pepsi and build our drag racer....was awesome life for 3 years till I cheated on him (stupid one night stand at a company christmas party) unconciously sabatoging my happiness. Our breakup led me to drinking , making bad choices and eventually realizing that I had relationship issues due to my abuse as a child and I needed to do some work on me!
Concious transformations began in my mid twenties, once I realized I had PTSD and that in order for me to achieve my biggest single goal in life: to be a mother- I would need to transform myself into being the worman that I wanted to be the mother of my future children.
First thing first Transform my thoughts- change my negative thinking into positive thinking. I read self help books, listened to cassett tapes. Mastered how to catch my thoughts as they were happening and correct them so if I was putting myself down , I would stop myself and say no it's ok and give myself a possitive affirmation.
That was the beginning to my own transformation back in 1984 at 25 years old.
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