Thankful

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

I worked today my ten hour shift then came home and studied online for 4 hours towards my Life Coach Certification.

I'm so grateful that I'm done blocking myself from writing my book and realized that through my book , I will be able to help so many other young people to find their voice and freedom from abuse, victimization. growing life of regrets, addictions.  Even more than going for a Masters in Social Work - will reach a broader scale this way.

So tired of working with these adults lost in addiction and needing to go back into their childhood to figure out where, when and how they started stuffing their feelings.  How much of their addiction is genetic, due to childhood traumas, mental health issues or just plain ignorance.  I have a large percentage of a generation of kids coming through our treatment center that are lost and in some cases , it's the parents that are giving the kids the drugs,the parents are addicts too and give the kids drugs like heroin for Heaven's sake!!!  Some parents out there are selling their children for in sex trafficking for drugs!!!! I can't take this messed up world and need to do something to try to save this next generation coming up!

Praying that by taking this book as a platform for my Life Coach business and speaker into Jr. High and High Schools,will help me to stop some youth from suicide or addiction. Maybe even teach some parents on how to love themselves and their children.   Ten percent of all sales and speaking engagements will go to Child abuse Advocacy Centers.

The title may change a hundred times before publishing

I keep rethinking the title of the book as there is so much that goes into the title.  It needs to not just be funny or cute, it needs to grab the attention of someone as they are scrolling the Amazon list of books. 

Title Ideas:

  "The Transformations of my lifetime"

Breaking cycles from childhood abuse, trauma-

Should I warn them that it has personal story to it?

OR

    

The Art of Transformations

Breaking cycles from childhood abuse, trauma-

       Basic format:

                     My childhood and adult experiences that led me to desire Transformations

                     Stages of different transformations- " we can transform at any point of life.

                     "Transformations of our thoughts"- retrain your brain

                     "Transformations of our heart"- forgiveness for you not them

                     "Transformations of our Soul"- from religion to the spiritual connection from within

Let me know what your ideas are..... I am writing this each weekend and hope to publish by 2017.  My goal, but Carol gets ideas, gets side tracked and loses her thoughts very easily so please help me to stay focused!  This is probably more attainable than a masters in social work for me at this point with my cognitive skills of late.   My "Probable MS" symptoms limit a lot of what I can do these days that I have to take into consideration with my crazy ideas.  I can't just run out and do like I use to.  Writing a book is something I can do mostly from bed!  ha ha

Preview to my upcoming best Seller

Degree in Transformations from childhood trauma's , including death of my mother before I was four, foster care . adoption into an daily abusive home- verbal, physical and more.   Gradeschool and middleschool was pure torture, bullied constantly at home and in school.   In fifth grade I got hit by a car as I was doing my brother's paper route and I fractured my pelvic bone. Being in the hospital for two weeks was a vacation, I was so happy for that time I even cried when I had to leave!

  As my late teenage years arrived evidant mistakes started being made from my negative thinking, low selfesteem.  Not sure how well I hide my self esteem issues from others , kept few close friends in HS, smiled and was nice to others though was real shy.  When I would get off bus , the house would either be quite with parents at bar so I would worry when would they come home and start a fight with me.  If father working then Mother would have something to yell and scream about as soon as I would walk in door.

 Moved to Las Vegas at 19 to get away from parents and started out well , no drinking, no smoking, was with my first love and he was into drag racing...drink pepsi and build our drag racer....was awesome life for 3 years till I cheated on him (stupid one night stand at a company christmas party) unconciously sabatoging my happiness. Our breakup led me to drinking , making bad choices and eventually realizing that I had relationship issues due to my abuse as a child and I needed to do some work on me!

Concious transformations began in my mid twenties, once I realized I had PTSD and that in order for me to achieve my biggest single goal in life:  to be a mother- I would need to transform myself into being the worman that I wanted to be the mother of my future children.

First thing first Transform my thoughts- change my negative thinking into positive thinking. I read self help books, listened to cassett tapes.  Mastered how to catch my thoughts as they were happening and correct them so if I was putting myself down , I would stop myself and say no it's ok and give myself a possitive affirmation.

That was the beginning to my own transformation back in 1984 at 25 years old.